It is just a boat....

So many times I have heard, “If you want to walk on water, you have to get out of the boat.” I agree with this statement, but it leaves out so many of the people that refused to step foot on the boat to begin with.

Excuses like there is a storm coming, there haven’t been enough fish to even get out on the boats, or worse yet I just don’t want to. All these excuses plague our lives; many of us it deal with them daily.

God hasn’t called us just to be on the boat to begin with… He allows us the amazing choice to step out into something we can’t control. Wow, I think I am preaching to the choir on this one :) (me of course). I know I struggle with this day after day.

There is so much out there that I need to DO, but fear, complacency, and doubt rush in and drown any bit of passion with every excuse possible. Today, I am so tired of it! More than my little, well long, fingers could ever type. I long for something that is a fantasy, when God can take a single choice, something as simple as getting on the metaphorical boat, and turn my faithfulness into a reality that rivals even the most extravagant of fantasies.

Today isn’t a day of getting out of the boat and walking on water. It is a gentle nudge from my Heavenly Father, that loves me so much, whispering: “Don’t be afraid to get on the boat. Don’t be so focused on My promises that you don’t take another step towards me. Love on me and follow me, even if the waters look turbulent. Remember it is only one step at a time.”

A new start for a new year.

Wow what a busy holiday season this has been! It has been wonderful and very busy. What a blessing to see my family from out of state and spend some much needed time with my husband! So many times I get so caught up in day to day life of homeschooling my step-son Z that I forget what a wonderful husband I actually have. During the day to day personal struggles I face every day I tend to forget to stop and be truly thankful for that is in front of me. Today I am reminded that life is short. My days are numbered… “LORD, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered--how fleeting my life is.” Psalms 39:4

This is the verse that brings me to my New Year’s Resolution… To eat better, and take better care of myself in general. I get so caught up in helping others around the house and making sure things get done that I don’t take care of myself. I know there are MANY moms and step-moms that do the very same thing, but this is my journey. I know I could make a novel of excuses for many actions and inactions, but excuses aren’t helping me.

Let it begin...

Learning to live life through love. Wow this has been the hardest obstacle in my life. It isn’t that I don’t love, and I definitely love life. The hard part for me is merging everything, and live life through the Love of Jesus. So many times I try to take it upon myself, but this blog is about my personal journey; struggles and victories. I would like to thank the Lord for every victory, no matter how small and insignificant my rational mind would like to think it is. This blog is my journey of a new marriage, life as an instant mom to my 7 year old step-son, and everything in between and still to come. Not only has being Z’s mother been a change, so was our diagnosis of Autism spectrum. I say we because this has been a whole family affair. Then yet another blow over the last year is our struggle with infertility. We have had every test imaginable, and the doctors cannot find a single thing wrong with my sweet husband or me. This is just the tip of the iceberg of my journey. It is my hope for this blog that my readers with laugh, cry, pray, and be encouraged by my journey to be a better wife, mother, and person.